Saturday, January 19, 2008
My List Of Thank-yous.
REAL DATE: 2ND FEBURARY 2008. (i kept forgetting to post it after decding that i didn't feel like continuing now, on sunday>.<)i realise that this is going to be the only post that i'd give a title [i think] cause you all know that's not really my thing right? or for most people, that is. Anyway, today got me thinking again. And today's one's special and close to my heart. okay, so almost all the post are "close" to my heart in one way or another, but i hope that this post will make you all happy too^^
I think that uhm..despite all the bad stuff, i've had a nice time on earth so far. And today i just kept thinking of how good people were to me, when i started to watch Just Married on Channel 5. And here's my list of Thank-you(s).. it's NOT in any particular, just that whoever comes across my mind, i would just mention. Ehm, i'm so sorry if i didn't mention your name anywhere, anyhow. There are just too many people whom i've known. But if you ever come across this post, do tell me if i've missed you out. ;)
GOD- "firstly, i'd like to thank God...." that's what almost everyone says when they've won something and they're thanking everyone for their success. But do they mean it? Do they know God themselves? Somehow i doubt that most of them have known and experienced God, and that the people in my school are just saying that because it's a Mission school and it just becomes "automatic". But for me, it's way different. What can i say.. but i've always wanted to be a Christian from young. And when i had a relationship with Jesus Christ, i sort of knew that i've made the right choice. Of course, it definitely took me quite some time to commit to church but i know that i'm doing this for the Kingdom Of God. God to me is like my dearest friend. Although even now i'm still getting used to not just think thoughts in my head and later blog it out, but rather, to pray and talk to God. It's just divine, this relationship with god. Jesus is like a friend whom you can count on, just like i can. He's really amazing; he takes my breath away. I know that he'd always be there for me, watching over me, giving my life purpose, teaching me lessons to be learnt in life, and picking me up whenever i fall. Jesus makes me trust and open up, with his commands and blessings. But i know i must also be careful in this sinful world.MOM- The most important thing.. for carrying a fatty like me in your womb for 8 months plus plus and finally giving birth to me. i guess i'd never be able to know how it feels like to be carrying a precious balloon around and be careful about it, until i finally conceive. Thank you for loving and being nice to me, although i'm such a rebellious, moody and unreasonable daughter. Sure, there are certain things that i wish you weren't and somethings that i wish you were more of but i suppose no one can be perfect. no mortal, that is. yeah, so thank you for being my mum.DAD- Guess you'd be wondering why the hell would i thank you for anything right now, if you'd ever read this. Yess i TOTALLY agree. But in this list of thank-you(s), you know i still love you or still want to love you. Sure, i find you exceptionally unreasonable at most times, especially these few months onwards. But i can't and will never deny that you're my dad. And it's my duty to honour you. I admit i haven't been a good daughter either, talking back to you and stuff. But i don't know, just seeing your face makes me so agitated nowadays. Thank you for the younger years of my life. For working so hard, and not allowing this family to be a broken one, no matter how much you can't stand mum. And prolly for my looks also.BIANCA- You know i would definitely mention her. You know she's the one i always stick to in school whenever i have the chance to meet up with her. And i don't intend to let her go, unless she wants to give up on this friendship, which i'm really afraid she might. but i'd like to thank her for EVERYTHING.
From being my best friend [or that's how much i value her, though i don't know how much she thinks about me], introducing me to awesome bands like Good Charlotte, TOKIO HOTEL, Cinema Bizarre, Blink 182 [with Tom Delonge, the "love of her life" right now], etc, BOYxBOY manga/anime [although i introduced anime to her first] and..being such a great friend. I guess i did expect too much from her as a friend over the last two years. But i realised it already after the June holidays and decided to pick up the lost connection i had with her during one very long period of time [i think it's about 3/4 a year] of our friendship problems. It was definitely hard, but i knew i was determined to make that friendship last and become stronger. I've watched her when she cried, slept next to her, saw her brush teeth and wash face [HEHEHE, chiang rai!], when she gets excited over something, when she's really tired, and more. Guess God has a brilliant way to make me appreciate my time more with her, not allowing us to be in the same class after sec 1. Sure there are ALOT [and i really mean alot] of times when there are hints of jealousy cause i can't be with her all the time. I used to think that if she found someone else "better" than me, someone who can make her happier, she'd leave me. But i'm really glad she's opening up alot more since sec1. And making the whole world realise that deep down inside, she's a very nice girl. I'm glad that she's smiling more and finds joy in music and japanese stuff. If Bianca is happy, why shouldn't I be happy too? I want to give her my best in everything, and i leave it to God to help her come back to Him also. Thank you so much, my dear dear Bianca. (: lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 10:05 PM
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Monday, January 14, 2008
hehe, i couldn't resist posting today too, so here i am again! (: [sacrificing my "Heroes-watching" time too!]
OMG today i was damn blur can. i don't know why, but maybe it's because i didn't get enough rest the past few weeks, especially yesterday night. (1) Today i TOTALLY forgot i had recess training! Until Bianca reminded me about it, before i turned to walk to the canteen with her. I think it's because Mrs Yeo released us later than when the recess bell rang and i was half-disturbed, half-distracted by it that i forgot about training. But thank you Bianca for reminding me! If not i would have clean forgotten and gotten into trouble heh..
After recess training, there was like 5 mins only for me to run up to the canteen and buy food. But lucky Alex Teoh came in late and so i had more than enough time to eat. Hais..speaking of Alex Teoh, i just wish he'd improve on his handwriting [loads] and speak louder.
Then maybe i'd pay more attention in class.. :\ Oh, Mrs Ong [physics teacher] came in like, TWENTY-FIVE mins late and ended up with only FIVE mins left for the lesson. Wonder where she went.. o.O
After school, me, Bianca and Sarah went to eat lunch together, and planned to ask Ms Praveena whether CIP at some NTUC ChildCare still can be approved our forms this year, cause she approved for last year, during december holidays. Actually Bianca and Sarah did one hour last wed but it was a profitable organisation so i'm glad we asked, cause she disapproved and then we didn't need to do already!
But then came the hard part-- Telling the NTUC ChildCare that we wouldn't be going for the next 15 sessions. We started to walk around, before going to the library to think of how we were going to tell them. We sat on three of the four shortest chairs in the library [the small blue ones and Sarah and Bianca were like, "You call them lah." or, "Cannot..i'm too shy.." [sarah] And because we saw Gar Wai doing library duty, both of them kept asking her to come over. Then we kept pleading with her to help us call the NTUC person and say that we're not coming. But then of course she say dun wan lah! haha. it was abit wu liao..
After about half an hour, we finally decided to go home and think of a very good excuse so that we'll never have to go there and do CIP again.
[that includes not telling them that we're doing it for the sake of the CIP points and since it was a profitable organisation, therefore we couldn't and don't want to do it] Take bus..then finally i decided that i should do something cause it's like everytime sarah finds the CIP, then Bianca tells me abt it and asks whether i want to join or not, etc and i felt kinda bad not doing much except for the CIP itself. So i used Sarah's phone to call after we got off the bus and were walking to the Ang Mo Kio MRT station.They didn't pick up. So..that left Sarah having to send them an email. heh. Sarah took a taxi home from there while me and Bianca took the train to Yishun, go Northpoint to buy my white ring file for Chemistry [or rather, grey. cause i couldn't find a white one]. (2) While walking to Popular right, i was telling Bianca that i had to return my storybook at Sun Plaza later on. After buying the file, i completely forgot that i had to return my book! Thank God Bianca was around to remind me again. hehe. and to think i nearly wanted to take the Bus all the way to my house..(3) Guess what? When i got to the MRT platform, i didn't know what i was thinking and i took the train going towards MARINA BAY. like, wth was i thinking??!! I'm supposed to take the train going towards JURONG EAST! No wonder the train was so empty.. And i didn't realise i took the wrong train until i heard that the next stop was "Khatib".. -.-"
But i got back in one piece(: hehe, i think hor, when go to school like got more interesting things happening^^ yepp. so hope to keep this blog updated as often as possible! lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 10:58 PM
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Sunday, January 13, 2008
today i'm feeling quite happy! [except for at night when my mum just went *ahem*crazy*ahem* because of my bill, the freaking autoroam thing f***ing up, resulting in my mum having to pay alot extra. and also because my bro haven't bathed] Firstly, i brought Cheryl to church! she's so cute can, sec one only and she's so small sized! haha. She was my first contact that i've brought to church. And i was so scared all the while! And i didn't expect her to accept Christ too, hehe. yay she's so friendly and i'm glad she made that decision in her life!Second thing was i read one of the mangas that Bianca lent me, Pocket Sentimental, and the pretty guy kissed the taller guy, who had a crush on him for a long time but was too shy to tell him. hehe. i think that manga very cute! like sth different too(: And it seemed to last longer than all the other mangas that i've read so far.. [maybe cause got more pictures, i kept reading a little only then stop, and i was reading slower??] I love the pretty guy's hair!!Thirdly, i told Bianca i kept thinking she was pretty since last year and when she replied, saying that she thought the same for me too. It was at the time i just finished reading the kissing part of the manga. So yeah, the grin on my face was even wider. We were actually talking [sms] about how our relatives keep judging us by our looks [fat-ness, etc]. When she was younger, her relatives thought she'd grow up to be fat and stupid. And i was like, "What??!! She's so not stupid! "And then of course i told her what i thought about her looks lah, haha. But at that time, i felt abit embarrassed hehe. So i put an embarrassed smiley face.When she replied me, i was like in disbelief you know. but i replied her, "and we didn't dare to tell each other last year." Then she said that it was quite random to mention while in school and i thought it was kind of true heh.. But the thing is right, it's not the compliment that she gave me that made me smile. But it was because i realised that there are some things that you have in common with another person, be it feelings, thoughts, passions, etc but you don't KNOW that until you ask or tell that person. And the feeling is like, wow. Amazed in a way, cause just when you thought that the other person surely wouldn't know or share the same thought, feeling or passion, she does. And then you'll find that you've grown closer to the person by a bit or maybe a lot too(: Because in a way, you've admitted something personal.HEHE.just really wanted to post this although nowadays i'm lazy to on the comp, mostly because of hw and partially because of the wonderful manga^^ Er..will post about christmas stuff anth day! [prob one month after everything happens-.-"] lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 2:10 AM
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