ahh i think this week's been a rather hectic and tiring week for me. stupid homework-- i'm still left with 14 hehh. DIEDIEDIE!! [and i still can use the computer, like i am now =.=] Then this week like quite cranky and moody luh. things haven't been going my way. And well..i kinda strayed away form God i guess.. as in, when i felt angry, i didn't seek him and all..and it was for a few days in a row. gahh.felt quite guilty..
on thursday afternoon, i was like randomly going to different websites and i went to Mr. Alex Teoh's one. actually wanted to maybe go through his chem notes but then i saw that 3L and 3G had to submit some question answers from the ten-year-series worksheet aboutthe periodic table and i got a shock you know! luckily it was due on Friday, 4pm. [but the next day he extended till Sunday, when he'll go upload the template on Edulearn for us to fill in our answers.]
Well, there was a short sentence on top of the list of questions we had to do, telling us that he has a bad flu and asks us to pray for him. [that was why he extended too, because he was too sick to do it on friday] I sms-ed him a while later, asking how was he and told him that i'd pray for his recovery later that day. Well, i dunno WHY but in that sms, i also told him about how my spiritual life in Christ was not strong this week and that i hoped to be refreshed by God this weekend (during service). After some time, he replied, saying that he'd pray for me too and encouraged me by saying that Christ would be with me always. And although i have heard it many times already, i was kind of touched when he replied me, as in the whole sms. *sniff* maybe it's because it's like the first time i've told a Christian teacher about all these kinda stuff. And i wasn't that close to him at all. But anyway, hope to see him in school on monday:)
Before service today, i went for Drawing class, which is like part of my ministry. Thought it started at 10am and that i was about half an hour late but apparentlySMART STEVEN said it actually started at 10.30 and the half an hour wasbuffering time. hahaha, guess he was expecting people to be late and stuff. Oh, Steven's the teacher of the class, although he's only a youth just like us. But he's REALLY good at drawing kae, especially with sketches. And he keeps using the smiley '=P' which i think is quite cute and funny haha. We did Blank *sth* today and like omg, everyone else is at least two years older than me (actually only 5 students in total) and their art is way better than mine.. felt inferior:\ hahaha.
I think today's sermon really applies to my life. Today Pastor Jefferey teaching wasEXPERIENCE THE JOY OF EASTER [John15:9-11]. It was kind of like more of speaking to the non-believers among us, and also kindo of like a recap of some teaching i've heard before. but it served as a little reminder about how to be joyful even when in difficult or hard times in my life. Today's songs were all the old ones, those that i've heard before luh. And guess what? All the songs sung during praise were the ones i liked alot last time. But now i kinda settle for slightly less rocky ones, i think:) It was freaking cold from the start of the service luh. and sorry Belinda, that i didn't pick up your call. At that time, we were halfway singing one of the worship songs, so don't spoil atmosphere(:
After lunch @ Le Meridien Foodcourt, my cg were studying but i sat there for awhile and look around. i knew i wouldn't be able to concentrate at that food court and was planning to leave at 3.30pm. I asked Sharon Goh which MRT station should i walk to, Somerset or Dhoby Ghaut. But in the end i decided to walk to Somerset luh. it's nearer than Dhoby Ghaut (because once you go in, you'll hv to walk all the long way to the NS Line and i'm lazy too hehe) anyway.
As i was walking, going to cross that small road to CentrePoint right, suddenly got thisHUGE PALM LEAF+SOME BARK DROP A LITTLE ON MY HEAD AND RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME.i was like kinda shocked laa!! I looked at that damn dried thing and saw that it was aboutMY HEIGHT LONG..?or maybe even longer. I was so scared luh!! i had NARROWLY ESCAPED DEATH just like that. Thank goodness it was like the middle of the whole thing that hit my head and not the super hard part, which is the bark there, if not i would have died or have brain damage already. When i looked up right, i saw this teenage girl look at me and what happened and her mouth was like OMG, her mouth opened so wide in shock. It was quite funny to see her expression though, cause the rest were like a bit staring at me without much expressions on their faces. I faster zhao laa, dun wna ppl to keep on staring and stuff.. i later called Sharon Goh to tell her what happened too.
In the MRT train, the first thing i thought of was that if i died at that moment, i would not have been ready, like haven't written my Will and all. And the weird/shocking thing was that i was actually thinking of my WillTODAY MORNINGon the way to Nexus. Dont ask me why, just suddenly thought of it. Then i was thinking back about the events that took place during the incident. I THINK God kinda saved me from death. Because just a split second before the whole thing happened, i stopped for like one second because i heard a car honking. Usually i wouldn't have given a damn about cars honking butIF I HAD NOT STOPPED AND HAD TAKEN THAT STEP FORWARD, IMAGINE WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED. You'd probably see me in a pool of blood, staining my black skinnies, brown shirt and my dear Germany Bag. I really thank God, you know. It was like a miracle that i didn't die. Yeah, i thank God for protecting me for i guess my time's not up yet and God still have a purpose for me in my life, to bring glory to His Kingdom etc.
HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD, SING WITH ME, HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD. AND ALL WILL SEE HOW GREAT, HOW GREAT IS OUR GOD.
i'm in love with this song, just like i'm in love with NEGAI by KAORI HIKITA now:)
p.s. I think today's drummer looks quite cute..! ^^
well, guess that since now's the start of the holidays, i hope and think i should be able to post more..? but eh..pardon me for the randomness, because if you haven't noticed, it's 3 am right now:)
i really really like the aeroplane. i dno, during history lesson on thurs, sharon law/whatever-her-surname-is showed us a short clip from a movie about the first aeroplanes that went to war or something like that and although it was kinda boring, i couldn't help but keep on watching how the aeroplanes flew and how exciting/scary it was for the pilot. i actually watched with my eyes widened and my mouth opened in amazement kae, no kidding. you can ask belinda, that is if she did notice. But then tt sorta 'rekindled' my passion to be a pilot. it definitely involves alot of risks and i might NOT be a pilot after all, because of my disappointingly short self and because i'm a female. but god, wish i could one day be one, or perhaps just fly one...
i think that school's making all of us kinda dead. i mean, it's tiring us out. maybe it's just me and the other people who are having competitions, which are draining them out. stupid CCC [campcraft competition]. i blame it for everything, my stinking grades, my great lack of sleep, etc. it kept being postphoned-- first it was changed from 22 feb to 1 march. then because when we went there it was raining heavily and again, it was postphoned. just found out last week..it's now 22 march, whatthehell. one month after the original date. dno what's the HTA problem. now still have to freakin train more. so sick and tired of training and doing the same old thing over and over again.
ANYWAY, what i wanted to point out was that Marcus, as well of the rest of the sec 4s seem so stressed up or something. marcus also have competition and he's like extremely busy and kinda don't get to talk to him alot. kinda miss his funniness and company online. And then sining also like become more quiet..i think all of them become more quiet and more mature.. and for me, i don't seem so energetic in school already, unless i'm being weird and don't know why i keep smiling so much as i speak to someone. i think i'm trying to hide something..but i'm not really sure either myself. it makes me think that sometimes the people who smiles a lot actually in fact has a lot of troubles. like myself. and i'm afraid one day i would explode. actually, sometimes you see me like very nice..but sometimes i guess you wouldn't want to see me when i'm angry. it would really shock you.
been kinda sad these few days, especially on wed, when we received out PPR. i was expecting my marks to be of that range, and seemed alright as i received it. but as the fact and truth sets in, i started to feel kinda sad. i think i got the lowest in class, although i absolutely love my english this term. i got an A2 when most people got a B or C. dno how i did it, but i'm glad i got it. though i screwed up my descriptive timed piece yesterday. then came the results of the Amaths test. was hoping to get a higher mark to pull up my F9, but it was a disappointing pass.and then teacher started to pile up a lot of homework. have to go back to school for cca and training. tues-- 14 HOURS: 8am-10pm. because needa prepare campfire for JTC campfire night.
today i had my 3rd shepherding with pearlyn seet. i don't know whats wrong with me, but everytime i see pearlyn, i can't really talk properly. as in i keep stammering. and so my teaching was SHIAT today. came ate for everything too-- pearlyn's shepherding, which led to me being late for meeting Li Ling, which led to us being late for service. Really makes me wonder if i should give up on pearlyn already. she don't seem responsive and can tell that she dun wna come for service already. it's lately becoming even more obvious. and i feel like such a failure. pearlyn's my first sheep and yet i can't get her to be connected. everytime i end up giving way to her excuses. sometimes i wish i could be strict and yet still gain respect from my sheeps.
tomorrow, or today, is sunday.dno what to do.but i think i should try to complete my homework asap. and use the com more, hopefully..
LOVES
god
cinema bizarre!
TOKIO HOTEL
Germany!
Shōnen-ai manga and anime! (any recommendations?)
Ben from Make Me A Supermodel(:
to be single(:
lemons (the fruit itself is more exciting(: )
mum's black pepper chicken
florida's natural orange juice
fresh australian milk (Masters Pura)
soya bean milk
dark chocolate
salmon (raw/half cooked)
the aeroplane!
muruku --VERY addictive
playing soccer (defender)
WISHES
;new mp3 player
;more nice coloured shirts
;black skinny jeans!
;dog collar!
;shoes- with at least a buckle and chains(:
;shoes- to match my striped long socks
;for eyeliner to look better on me.
;a COOL haircut. :D
;new guitar!
;cd- ZIMMER 483.
;a best friend who takes me as hers too.
;a new idol! [desperate.]
;a friend to love.
;FOR TOKIO HOTEL TO COME TO S'PORE.
;for guys to like me only as a FRIEND.
;to be a pilot :D
;good grades [duhh.]
;more money xD
;parents to not quarrel anymore
;more people getting to know the Lord((:
;lotsa cds that i like(:
;more FOOD!
[sngs_npcc]
