Saturday, February 09, 2008
hey y'all. sorry but i think that i won't be posting anymore. or prolly in a very long time. you see, i've become rather lazy and well.. it's kinda inconvenient for me cause of the following restrictions:
(1) mum. she has changed the password to a horribly unbreakable and unchangable one and refuses to give it to me. lost trust between me and her. freeeaaak. i only can use it to do homework, etc. no playing! D:
(2) therefore, it becomes inconvenient for me to use the com. but anyway, it was already inconvenient for me as whenever i start to think, i usually don't have the access to the com. and i guess i either spend alot of time thinking about how to construct what i'm going to write or trying hard not to forget what i want to write. seems a little stressful and like what my sister said, you'd feel like it is a MUST to update and so naturally you'll feel stressed. gahh.
(3) mum and dad keeps complaining about the electricity bill. so i can't use for a very long time, unless i do it illegally. (i.e. use at night so that they sleep already then i can use at least slightly longer)
(4) i can't use the com till too late, otherwise my dad would come out and smoke, forcing me to faster wash up and go to bed. horrible man! but anyway, guess it's really past my bedtime then i..can't really blame him. unless he anyhow accuse me of using for so long when in actual fact, i started using it late.
I used to think that keeping a diary was a chore, etc. i guess i was pretty lazy to write also. Write halfway, then think that my hand very tired so i put in there "to be continued..." but in the end i also never complete it. BUT, breakthrough. I've so totally fallen in love with the notebook Joan gave to me during last year's Christmas, although it looks like a plain notebook inside, the "soft-coloured" circles on the cover are so pleasing to the eyes, cute and well..the pages inside are definitely better than normal exercise books(: It's from Korea, btw. hahaha. yepp. uh..today i'm not sure if i'm going to write in it..but i'e been doing so for the last two days!
My first diary's too childish now and my second's so small, you'll have to use dno how many pages. must keep on flipping the pages, so irritating until it makes me lose interest in completing the entry. :/
Hmm..i shall end this post with some 'clarifications' [should there even be a word. but you get what i mean, don't cha?]/ things i'd like to let you know:
1) the fact that i have a broken family will never change and although it seems fine on the surface, you wouldn't want to know what really goes on inside everyone's head.
2) i will devote the rest of my secondary days [if possible, my life] to my BELOVED. just want to be by beloved's side(:
3) Diaries are meant to be private and so is my private blog. like i said, if i'm ready to show it to y'all, i'll post the link. Btw, i'm pretty sure that the person i've given the link to isn't going to read it anymore, because we ain't so close already. so what's the point of continuing to post?
4) i love 2 Justice'07 and won't forget it's existence. (unless i get old and start to forget a lot of things)
BUHBYE WILL POST UH..WHEN I'M FEELING UBER BORED OR SOMETHING(: lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 12:10 AM
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