well, guess that since now's the start of the holidays, i hope and think i should be able to post more..? but eh..pardon me for the randomness, because if you haven't noticed, it's 3 am right now:)
i really really like the aeroplane. i dno, during history lesson on thurs, sharon law/whatever-her-surname-is showed us a short clip from a movie about the first aeroplanes that went to war or something like that and although it was kinda boring, i couldn't help but keep on watching how the aeroplanes flew and how exciting/scary it was for the pilot. i actually watched with my eyes widened and my mouth opened in amazement kae, no kidding. you can ask belinda, that is if she did notice. But then tt sorta 'rekindled' my passion to be a pilot. it definitely involves alot of risks and i might NOT be a pilot after all, because of my disappointingly short self and because i'm a female. but god, wish i could one day be one, or perhaps just fly one...
i think that school's making all of us kinda dead. i mean, it's tiring us out. maybe it's just me and the other people who are having competitions, which are draining them out. stupid CCC [campcraft competition]. i blame it for everything, my stinking grades, my great lack of sleep, etc. it kept being postphoned-- first it was changed from 22 feb to 1 march. then because when we went there it was raining heavily and again, it was postphoned. just found out last week..it's now 22 march, whatthehell. one month after the original date. dno what's the HTA problem. now still have to freakin train more. so sick and tired of training and doing the same old thing over and over again.
ANYWAY, what i wanted to point out was that Marcus, as well of the rest of the sec 4s seem so stressed up or something. marcus also have competition and he's like extremely busy and kinda don't get to talk to him alot. kinda miss his funniness and company online. And then sining also like become more quiet..i think all of them become more quiet and more mature.. and for me, i don't seem so energetic in school already, unless i'm being weird and don't know why i keep smiling so much as i speak to someone. i think i'm trying to hide something..but i'm not really sure either myself. it makes me think that sometimes the people who smiles a lot actually in fact has a lot of troubles. like myself. and i'm afraid one day i would explode. actually, sometimes you see me like very nice..but sometimes i guess you wouldn't want to see me when i'm angry. it would really shock you.
been kinda sad these few days, especially on wed, when we received out PPR. i was expecting my marks to be of that range, and seemed alright as i received it. but as the fact and truth sets in, i started to feel kinda sad. i think i got the lowest in class, although i absolutely love my english this term. i got an A2 when most people got a B or C. dno how i did it, but i'm glad i got it. though i screwed up my descriptive timed piece yesterday. then came the results of the Amaths test. was hoping to get a higher mark to pull up my F9, but it was a disappointing pass.and then teacher started to pile up a lot of homework. have to go back to school for cca and training. tues-- 14 HOURS: 8am-10pm. because needa prepare campfire for JTC campfire night.
today i had my 3rd shepherding with pearlyn seet. i don't know whats wrong with me, but everytime i see pearlyn, i can't really talk properly. as in i keep stammering. and so my teaching was SHIAT today. came ate for everything too-- pearlyn's shepherding, which led to me being late for meeting Li Ling, which led to us being late for service. Really makes me wonder if i should give up on pearlyn already. she don't seem responsive and can tell that she dun wna come for service already. it's lately becoming even more obvious. and i feel like such a failure. pearlyn's my first sheep and yet i can't get her to be connected. everytime i end up giving way to her excuses. sometimes i wish i could be strict and yet still gain respect from my sheeps.
tomorrow, or today, is sunday.dno what to do.but i think i should try to complete my homework asap. and use the com more, hopefully..
LOVES
god
cinema bizarre!
TOKIO HOTEL
Germany!
Shōnen-ai manga and anime! (any recommendations?)
Ben from Make Me A Supermodel(:
to be single(:
lemons (the fruit itself is more exciting(: )
mum's black pepper chicken
florida's natural orange juice
fresh australian milk (Masters Pura)
soya bean milk
dark chocolate
salmon (raw/half cooked)
the aeroplane!
muruku --VERY addictive
playing soccer (defender)
WISHES
;new mp3 player
;more nice coloured shirts
;black skinny jeans!
;dog collar!
;shoes- with at least a buckle and chains(:
;shoes- to match my striped long socks
;for eyeliner to look better on me.
;a COOL haircut. :D
;new guitar!
;cd- ZIMMER 483.
;a best friend who takes me as hers too.
;a new idol! [desperate.]
;a friend to love.
;FOR TOKIO HOTEL TO COME TO S'PORE.
;for guys to like me only as a FRIEND.
;to be a pilot :D
;good grades [duhh.]
;more money xD
;parents to not quarrel anymore
;more people getting to know the Lord((:
;lotsa cds that i like(:
;more FOOD!
[sngs_npcc]
