Sunday, September 24, 2006
what a stupid day..its that sister of mine again, always trying to pick a fight with me. Just a simple comment could spark one and she always thinks i am insulting her in one way or another. She complains alot and ownself says ppl complain alot and wont admit that she is in the wrong. Every argument, whenever she is in e wrong, she would twist and twist until it seems it is her victim's fault instead. Every little thing i do nowadays she likes to pick on it. I know she doesnt like me, for who-knows-why, but that doesnt give her e right to make my life miserable. At night i cant even talk. So imagine, how happy i was when she went for OBS for 5 days! SO like a dream come true, even my bro agrees that whenever she is around she seems to restrict and boss us abt(except my bro always stick to her whenever she is around and she uses him to make me jealous of anything so i dun really noe if it is true wat he says). And now, back to my tortured life again. Afterall, she is e eldest of the trio and wen she says one, who dares say two(actually nowadays i do.i do not care.so wat if she is my elder?I hv to fight for myself rite? heck!)? But anyway, im not dat stupid too. If there is nothing left to argue and she is still rattling away, might as well stop.dun hv to waste my breath on her. Im kinda glad nowadays im quite senseless, as in usually wen unless something really affects me den i care, and i must promise myself i wont cry or be hurt just bcos of her, not like b4. So nowadays wen she does not listen to me or care abt wat i am trying to tell her, i do not see any wrong in doing e same thing to her. So she cant give e stupid reason that i wat shit mature faster den everyone else, just bcos i 'not fun' to her. Stupid reason rite? Maturity is not judged by one's own mood/tiredness so no energy to play/etc and wen i try to tell her dat? She thinks its all crap and wont listen to my explaination. Duhh..so typical of her whenever i try to communicate with her. So hor, wen she is nice to me, i am always cautious. I do not know for sure what reason she may be up to. So there you go. Some sister..i honestly do not hate her but now dat she doesnt like me, i also feel so inclined to dislike her, just like with some 'friends'. Each day i either dislike her even more or cant even be bothered a little bit. If she reads this, i cant say anything more than that serves her right for kpo-ing my things.my blog. She knows i hv a blog and where she can go and see it so it would be tuh badd yo..sure, she got e looks and wat am i? A big ol ugly freak with so much fats. But sometimes i do thank my lucky stars im not her, but myself, no matter it seems how much more luckier she is as compared to me. Ah well, there no point in talking abt her le..signing off.. lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 2:52 PM
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