Wednesday, October 25, 2006
I GUESS I know why they always seem to hv smthing against me. Its bcos i'm always (yes, really.if not you can say almost) around whenever they complain to each other or themselves. Ya, and wen they are complaining/referring to us three, I'll ALWAYS be around and then they direct their gazes to ME. And then they COMPLAIN to ME, like as if i was the one at all fault.like as if I was e one responsible for all that hv happened. And I hv to take in all e crap! They just, start to take it all out on me! Like as if i'm a sponge, always ready to absorb all their problems as they say them out loud. I'm so SICK and TIRED. ME! ME! ME! EVERYTHING MUST BE ME!! And then wat? They start to look at me, like as if i'm some HATED OBJECT, like as if i'm some trash. (ok i gotta admit i AM trash, yes.) Then theystart to dislike me. ALWAYS MUST BE ME. What the blood* f**king hell is their problem??! I no feelings ar? SH*T! [and the swearing goes on...] ya. HOW I WISH i can just be away frm this hse --NoT HOME--, just this chance to be away frm this stupid sick family. Hah. No one loves me in this sad pathetic family. But who cares? I always feel this anger and sadness in me anyway. No diff. Just living my life, filled with lies people hv told me, and those I hc told. Just waiting till the day i die. Don't expect much of myself, let alone my life. I'll just live, so all of you can live on me.so all of you can suck the living hell out of me.so all of you can feed on me. What am I? A lifeless freak THING.
[and i guess i'm proud of it.yup.]
lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 11:39 AM
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