Monday, November 20, 2006
I HATE the family i HAVE to live with. Everything i'm wrong. All they hv to say to me is nothing but complaining to/about me. Brother claims he hates everything i love. He always accuse me of things i mostly didn't do, whenever he gets a chance to. I can feel sister hates and dislikes me. If you hv read my previous posts, you'd know. Mother. When would she stop complaining to ME?? yea, if you had read my previous posts, you'd know too. But i'll add on.My turn to wash dishes -- must wash by that day AND if i don't clear e rubbish [e person whu washes dishes on dat day has to clear rubbish], she'll complain and make a big fuss out of it.Brother's turn -- he nowadays claim to be too TIRED and go to sleep EARLY. so wat happens? he can wash e dishes e NEXT day. AND he can SKIP e clearing of e dishes!! wat Mother says? NOTHING!! yea, talk abt unfairness. stupid a**h***.always expects us to predict e weather, cos usually we keep e clothes when it starts to rain.isn't that like, too much to ask?? we can't possibly be psychic, can we??Father.Just bcos of dunno-what-reason-but-i-think-he-got-better-results-than-semester 1, he can get a raise in his pocket money for next year!! I mean, i get better results than him all e time when im his age.but NOBODY cares.father NEVER even offered me that.wat's his excuse? "If i had offered you, i would hv surely lost. you're so smart, surely win de lah." so..i'll get nothing, huh?i feel like running away from home.i WANT to run away from home.away from this awful place.away from the place where im always wrong.nobody wants to share ANYTHING with me.i feel like my heart is breaking [when it is said in Camp Lazlo, it'll be funnier haha].i definitely do not belong to this particular family at this point of time.nobody needs me anyway.i keep wondering, if i were not born in first place, wouldn't e world be so much of a better place to live in?? yea.parents were considering whether anot to hv me b4 i was born.and i guess they are gonna get a divorce soon.prob in 2008.and they MUST tell me.well the bottom line is i just wanna get away from this life.mayb goin out of hse is much MUCH better.then i won't hv to hear everything everyone has to say. lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 9:19 PM
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