They always leave me out. Whenever i try to start a conversation, they answer me like i'm some irritant. They always seem pissed off when they answer. They often laugh together, like as if mocking me. That i would never be as close as them. Like as if they would be buddies for life. They don't seem to notice if i've gone off. Only one usually says goodbye. I've taken some initiative, like one have suggested so they won't only talk abt their 'stuff'. But they still do. All smiles when they talk to each other, but none when i'm participating in the conversation.
One of them sort of 'copy' me. Since i started tying my hair, she's been letting down more of her fringe. Yesterday morning i noticed her watch was way much looser than before. And i've had my watch loose since the beginning of secondary sch life, and she's had hers on almost sticking to her wrist all the while till now.
I guess i don't really like the fact that ppl would copy me and 'steal' my so'called 'original look'. Some things, the way i do it, makes me feel sort of 'original' and that i noe i'm not copying ppl. Just like the fact that i hate people just STARING at me for no particular reason. That's why i try very hard not to stare at others too. I'm not boasting or anything of that sort. Its just really one of the things i try hard to do.
But then, mayb i shuld break away from them. I mean, whenever i'm with them, i feel such great sadness in me. I think i don't really noe why. Or mayb its just that a part of me refuses to let my brain know so i can put on this blog post..hais. But then its like if i don't go with them, i'm afraid we might be some sort of enemies in the near future.
I think this is a very short post.and its pretty much incomplete.i'm sry but i cant seem to realy 'concentrate' now i think lehs.. :\ next time. (:
LOVES
god
cinema bizarre!
TOKIO HOTEL
Germany!
Shōnen-ai manga and anime! (any recommendations?)
Ben from Make Me A Supermodel(:
to be single(:
lemons (the fruit itself is more exciting(: )
mum's black pepper chicken
florida's natural orange juice
fresh australian milk (Masters Pura)
soya bean milk
dark chocolate
salmon (raw/half cooked)
the aeroplane!
muruku --VERY addictive
playing soccer (defender)
WISHES
;new mp3 player
;more nice coloured shirts
;black skinny jeans!
;dog collar!
;shoes- with at least a buckle and chains(:
;shoes- to match my striped long socks
;for eyeliner to look better on me.
;a COOL haircut. :D
;new guitar!
;cd- ZIMMER 483.
;a best friend who takes me as hers too.
;a new idol! [desperate.]
;a friend to love.
;FOR TOKIO HOTEL TO COME TO S'PORE.
;for guys to like me only as a FRIEND.
;to be a pilot :D
;good grades [duhh.]
;more money xD
;parents to not quarrel anymore
;more people getting to know the Lord((:
;lotsa cds that i like(:
;more FOOD!
[sngs_npcc]
