Friday, September 07, 2007
hmm...lalala...i'm typing in a calm, rythmic and not forgetting to mention slow manner right now..so as to not lose my train of thoughts and well, yeah i'm a bit tired heh. mum just came back but i dun care..it's my dad that i'm afraid of if i use the com so late in the night..yep okie here i go then..these two days i was really very pissed with my sister. It's like she keep treating me like shiat lor. I think she always thinks bad and negative things about me. She also got write in her blog. I think she's rather ungrateful. But then i shall not go elaborating on it. Because i kept thinking that if i write all the bad stuff about her on this blog, wouldn't i be stirring up more hate? And yep, what we learnt in last saturday's Shepherding Class, the 4th test: a peacemaker, not troublemaker. Do i make peace or stir up trouble? Do i like to be argumentative? Well, an argumentative attitude is a mark of immaturity and our Ministry Requires Maturity. I do not want to be so immature enough so as to blog about her evil actions anymore because then everyone would read it and get a rather bad impression of her. [i'm sorry i've done that in the past but now i realise it is wrong and that i have to change.] I think they should meet the person and get to know her themselves. It is not up to me to 'corrupt' her mind. But seriously, i was rather angry at her.I just received the song, Tsuki No Kaasu, my blog song, from Yau Xuan today. haha. quite fun. Both of us were commenting on each other's friendster accounts and yep, i asked him to send it to me thru Windows Messenger. YAY^^ happy le. I also got put in my phone, hehe. Just now i asked if Bianca wanted it but then she said her manga songs cd have le. Oh wells...I went to school in the afternoon, hoping to take my maths textbook home so that i can revise la. i was walking towards the 265 bus stop and then the bus came. well, i was kinda lazy you see and although it was just a couple of steps away, i did not runto board it. REGRET. i ended up waiting for it for like, 15 to 20 mins. Slightly pissed. Then right, because the bus stopped at nearest to the back gate so i tried to go in la. LOCKED. Quite pissed le. so, i had to walk ONE BIG ROUND just to get to the front gate and honestly speaking, it was tiring. And i just bathed. want me to sweat so much some more. Walked to class. Classroom door LOCKED. EXTREMELY pissed le lor. Go all the way to school for nothing. At that time, i could feel abit of hot tears like want to come out of my eyes. I've got anger management issues. Yeah, and because i went to school, i was late for meeting Sharon they all to go for Prayer Meeting. [but to my surprise, i later found out that they were also late and they came to the 135 bus stop about 1 min before i did. hee.]yep, we were all late. And i was trying to listen to music on my phone, trying to cool down. I think music is really influential and essential in my life as it affects my mood, haha. Yeah, the packet of Milo i was drinking apparently didnt work to improve my mood.During Prayer Meeting at Rachael's house, we were praying [duhh.] and i asked God to help me cool down la. i asked God to help me not get angry with my sister when i get home. Well, i guess God really did answer my prayers. When i got home, i decided to ignore her, and not look at her straight in the face. It kinda worked. Then she started to get so stressed up because she couldn't find her chemistry book. I don't know why, but i started to help her look for it. Funneh. I just felt that i needed to do it. Bt in the end, we find how hard also cannot find. but think she seems happier becuase i did make an effort to try to find it for her.I don't know why but after i got home, my mood was exceptionally good. After i ate, i immediately washed the dishes and threw away the rubbish without even being told. [usually it's either my mum or dad who bags the rubbish up when they get home and asks someone to throw it away.] then after that, i washed the school shoes. surprisingly, i took only 20 mins, like alot shorter than on normal days when i wash shoes. cool. that's what i get when my mood is good? haha.Then i went to bathe. LADIES AND GENTLEMENT, FOR THE RECORD, I'VE BATHED TWO TIMES TODAY. haha. you'll only get to see me do that once in a blue moon.After that, i folded my clothes and den went to use the com. hee. i feel happy now((: tommorow's service again. purposely arranged tuition time to 9:00 in the morning so that i could attend the Unit Meeting after service and a possible shepherding from Sharon. IF she gets ready a lesson for tmr. can't wait! haha. lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 9:58 PM
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