Tuesday, November 06, 2007
Hey guys..so sorry I don’t think that I’ll be posting about the Chiang Rai trip anymore..just don’t feel like it. [perhaps after a VERY LONG time? *shrugs*] BUT. I’ll post a few videos and pictures. (:
my buddy-- SIRIAM! <3 She's 12!
me and my guy buddy, NUTTHAWUT. He's FOURTEEN only, can you believe it?! i thought he was like 19 or sth!
i didn't really talk to him much.. ):
Amphiga. [i think that's how her name is spelled] She's Andrea's buddy but she was treated me better and even said that i was a good person. DNO WHY. but she's nice! :D she's 12 too.
Some random picture i took during the picnic(:
THE FIRST GIRLS PERFORMANCE. can you spot my girl buddy?
SIRIAM and Wen Jing's buddy. i think her buddy's kinda cute and pretty, don't cha think! she's 8.
BIANCA's toy cat! she brought it to Chiang Rai haha.
i've wrapped my bible! :D Front.
Back. hehe, well that picture shows BROTHERHOOD, ad they look very loving too(:
SO SORRY THE VIDEOS ARE BLURRED AND OF POOR QUALITY, partially because of my phone, but because of my inexperienced hands too... D:
FASHION SHOW, kinda hee. My buddy's on the right! i think..
THE FIRST BOY PERFORMANCE. (part 1)
THE FIRST BOYS PERFORMANCE. (part 2) sorry my phone ran out of space halfway and i missed about 1 min puls of the middle!
EVERYBODY SINGING. my guy buddy's in the second last row, second from the left.
My guy buddy playing the guitar with someone else's buddy. He's on the right!
SORRY this time it's REALLY my fault that the video's horrid...
Hmm..remember the other time I said I had a private blog? The thing that I’m gna post abt today SHOULD have been posted on it, but somehow I just feel that it’s not really much of any use. To keep people’s identities protected, and since this is a public blog, I shall start with three people, Person A, Person B and Person C.
Well, I regard Person A as a rather good friend, probably my best friend. But since last month, I’ve been wondering if she really did see me as one herself. Person A and B had a bit of friendship problems with Person C recently, and I did try to help to solve them. And of course, being the “middle-person” [or trying to be one], they told me some stuff about the other party, except that Person B didn’t really talk to me much.
And I think that a few things that Person C mentioned were a little true…? ‘cause I don’t know, whenever I’m arnd with Person A and B, Person A tends to stick with and talk to Person B more. But when Person B leaves, Person A starts to talk to me more. However, when Person A faced some sort of problems a few months ago, I did ask her about it and she said that I was a better friend than Person B and C, prob cos I showed more concern. Or whatever the reason is.
The thing is, I’ve been rather confused and feeling rather insecure lately, asking myself whether I REALLY mean more to Person A than Person B means to her. Yeah, Person B IS funny, and can make her laugh. I guess I AM hopeless at those “making-people-laugh” stuff and lack the ability to do so. Therefore, I find it REALLY hard to talk to Person A whenever Person B is arnd. I just..feel so inferior…and I feel sad when I see them tgth, like before I’m supposed to meet Person A, and on one occasion I did ask her whether she would like me to accompany her to somewhere [I did ask her the day before and she said okay] but before she replied my SMS, I saw her with Person B walking to that very place. I hope I’m not being over-sensitive.. I guess I’m feeling kinda upset about this, and perhaps the next time I see Person A online, I’ll talk to her about it.
i’ve been thinking. People like to go with others who CAN MAKE THEM HAPPY. And I know that I ABSOLUTEY don’t have that kind of talent, whatsoever. Plus, I’m pretty quiet/soft-spoken or I just don’t want to talk. Call me emo, whatever. But I don’t think there’s much in school that I’m looking forward to nowadays. I’m pretty much a loner in school, cause my “group of friends” are in another class. I’ve left my “second group of friends” already for quite some time, cause someone whom I thought I could actually be close with IN CLASS apparently found someone else WHO COULD MAKE HER HAPPY. It kinda broke my heart, but I know it’s no use crying over spilled milk.
OKAY, the reason why I don’t like NPCC nowadays is not really because of the work and all the activities, but more of the PEOPLE. In my squad, there’s this “clique” which I don’t like because in the first place, WE’RE SUPPOSED TO BE BONDED AS A WHOLE SQUAD. And I don’t have someone to “go with” during CCA, unless it’s a person whom EVERYONE don’t want to partner. In class also like that. And they just stick me with her all the time.
AND NOBODY CARES, F***.
Well, I regard Person A as a rather good friend, probably my best friend. But since last month, I’ve been wondering if she really did see me as one herself. Person A and B had a bit of friendship problems with Person C recently, and I did try to help to solve them. And of course, being the “middle-person” [or trying to be one], they told me some stuff about the other party, except that Person B didn’t really talk to me much.
And I think that a few things that Person C mentioned were a little true…? ‘cause I don’t know, whenever I’m arnd with Person A and B, Person A tends to stick with and talk to Person B more. But when Person B leaves, Person A starts to talk to me more. However, when Person A faced some sort of problems a few months ago, I did ask her about it and she said that I was a better friend than Person B and C, prob cos I showed more concern. Or whatever the reason is.
The thing is, I’ve been rather confused and feeling rather insecure lately, asking myself whether I REALLY mean more to Person A than Person B means to her. Yeah, Person B IS funny, and can make her laugh. I guess I AM hopeless at those “making-people-laugh” stuff and lack the ability to do so. Therefore, I find it REALLY hard to talk to Person A whenever Person B is arnd. I just..feel so inferior…and I feel sad when I see them tgth, like before I’m supposed to meet Person A, and on one occasion I did ask her whether she would like me to accompany her to somewhere [I did ask her the day before and she said okay] but before she replied my SMS, I saw her with Person B walking to that very place. I hope I’m not being over-sensitive.. I guess I’m feeling kinda upset about this, and perhaps the next time I see Person A online, I’ll talk to her about it.
i’ve been thinking. People like to go with others who CAN MAKE THEM HAPPY. And I know that I ABSOLUTEY don’t have that kind of talent, whatsoever. Plus, I’m pretty quiet/soft-spoken or I just don’t want to talk. Call me emo, whatever. But I don’t think there’s much in school that I’m looking forward to nowadays. I’m pretty much a loner in school, cause my “group of friends” are in another class. I’ve left my “second group of friends” already for quite some time, cause someone whom I thought I could actually be close with IN CLASS apparently found someone else WHO COULD MAKE HER HAPPY. It kinda broke my heart, but I know it’s no use crying over spilled milk.
OKAY, the reason why I don’t like NPCC nowadays is not really because of the work and all the activities, but more of the PEOPLE. In my squad, there’s this “clique” which I don’t like because in the first place, WE’RE SUPPOSED TO BE BONDED AS A WHOLE SQUAD. And I don’t have someone to “go with” during CCA, unless it’s a person whom EVERYONE don’t want to partner. In class also like that. And they just stick me with her all the time.
AND NOBODY CARES, F***.
lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 6:24 PM