Saturday, January 19, 2008
My List Of Thank-yous.
REAL DATE: 2ND FEBURARY 2008. (i kept forgetting to post it after decding that i didn't feel like continuing now, on sunday>.<)i realise that this is going to be the only post that i'd give a title [i think] cause you all know that's not really my thing right? or for most people, that is. Anyway, today got me thinking again. And today's one's special and close to my heart. okay, so almost all the post are "close" to my heart in one way or another, but i hope that this post will make you all happy too^^
I think that uhm..despite all the bad stuff, i've had a nice time on earth so far. And today i just kept thinking of how good people were to me, when i started to watch Just Married on Channel 5. And here's my list of Thank-you(s).. it's NOT in any particular, just that whoever comes across my mind, i would just mention. Ehm, i'm so sorry if i didn't mention your name anywhere, anyhow. There are just too many people whom i've known. But if you ever come across this post, do tell me if i've missed you out. ;)
GOD- "firstly, i'd like to thank God...." that's what almost everyone says when they've won something and they're thanking everyone for their success. But do they mean it? Do they know God themselves? Somehow i doubt that most of them have known and experienced God, and that the people in my school are just saying that because it's a Mission school and it just becomes "automatic". But for me, it's way different. What can i say.. but i've always wanted to be a Christian from young. And when i had a relationship with Jesus Christ, i sort of knew that i've made the right choice. Of course, it definitely took me quite some time to commit to church but i know that i'm doing this for the Kingdom Of God. God to me is like my dearest friend. Although even now i'm still getting used to not just think thoughts in my head and later blog it out, but rather, to pray and talk to God. It's just divine, this relationship with god. Jesus is like a friend whom you can count on, just like i can. He's really amazing; he takes my breath away. I know that he'd always be there for me, watching over me, giving my life purpose, teaching me lessons to be learnt in life, and picking me up whenever i fall. Jesus makes me trust and open up, with his commands and blessings. But i know i must also be careful in this sinful world.MOM- The most important thing.. for carrying a fatty like me in your womb for 8 months plus plus and finally giving birth to me. i guess i'd never be able to know how it feels like to be carrying a precious balloon around and be careful about it, until i finally conceive. Thank you for loving and being nice to me, although i'm such a rebellious, moody and unreasonable daughter. Sure, there are certain things that i wish you weren't and somethings that i wish you were more of but i suppose no one can be perfect. no mortal, that is. yeah, so thank you for being my mum.DAD- Guess you'd be wondering why the hell would i thank you for anything right now, if you'd ever read this. Yess i TOTALLY agree. But in this list of thank-you(s), you know i still love you or still want to love you. Sure, i find you exceptionally unreasonable at most times, especially these few months onwards. But i can't and will never deny that you're my dad. And it's my duty to honour you. I admit i haven't been a good daughter either, talking back to you and stuff. But i don't know, just seeing your face makes me so agitated nowadays. Thank you for the younger years of my life. For working so hard, and not allowing this family to be a broken one, no matter how much you can't stand mum. And prolly for my looks also.BIANCA- You know i would definitely mention her. You know she's the one i always stick to in school whenever i have the chance to meet up with her. And i don't intend to let her go, unless she wants to give up on this friendship, which i'm really afraid she might. but i'd like to thank her for EVERYTHING.
From being my best friend [or that's how much i value her, though i don't know how much she thinks about me], introducing me to awesome bands like Good Charlotte, TOKIO HOTEL, Cinema Bizarre, Blink 182 [with Tom Delonge, the "love of her life" right now], etc, BOYxBOY manga/anime [although i introduced anime to her first] and..being such a great friend. I guess i did expect too much from her as a friend over the last two years. But i realised it already after the June holidays and decided to pick up the lost connection i had with her during one very long period of time [i think it's about 3/4 a year] of our friendship problems. It was definitely hard, but i knew i was determined to make that friendship last and become stronger. I've watched her when she cried, slept next to her, saw her brush teeth and wash face [HEHEHE, chiang rai!], when she gets excited over something, when she's really tired, and more. Guess God has a brilliant way to make me appreciate my time more with her, not allowing us to be in the same class after sec 1. Sure there are ALOT [and i really mean alot] of times when there are hints of jealousy cause i can't be with her all the time. I used to think that if she found someone else "better" than me, someone who can make her happier, she'd leave me. But i'm really glad she's opening up alot more since sec1. And making the whole world realise that deep down inside, she's a very nice girl. I'm glad that she's smiling more and finds joy in music and japanese stuff. If Bianca is happy, why shouldn't I be happy too? I want to give her my best in everything, and i leave it to God to help her come back to Him also. Thank you so much, my dear dear Bianca. (: lost; blur; hurt was brought to life at 10:05 PM
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